Casting all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you...1 Peter 5:7

Dearest Michael~

I've decided I don't want to do this anymore...it is so hard to live my life and not share it with you...oh, I know you are here in spirit and in my heart, always, but I miss having you by my side and I miss your crazy sense of humor and I miss talking to you and I miss sharing things with you and I miss worrying with you and I miss the family things...I just miss you!!!

We had Easter without you and the boys were here and Sarah, and KLO and Chris, Bethany, Mylah and Steve and his girlfriend and her little boy ... and every moment I kept expecting to hear your voice...your laughter...your crazy dinner conversations and I know you would have enjoyed having those little ones at our table...

So many things happening...and you aren't here...I truly don't want to do it anymore...but I know that I will and I will honor you and all you stood for...but that doesn't mean I have to like it...

Forever love,
Karen

Cast thy burden on the Lord;
Only lean upon His word:
Thou shalt soon have cause to bless
His eternal faithfulness.
Ever in the raging storm
Thou shalt see His cheering form,
Hear His pledge of coming aid:
“It is I, be not afraid.”

Cast thy burden at His feet;
Linger at His mercy seat:
He will lead thee by the hand
Gently to the better land.
He will gird thee by His power,
In thy weary, fainting hour:
Lean, then, loving, on His word;
Cast thy burden on the Lord.
—Author unknown

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding...Proverbs 3:5

Dearest Michael~

Here I am, after a long bout of not writing on this blog...I've been keeping up with your caring bridge page, and that's about all I've been able to handle...I'm going to give that one up soon...I hate to, because in a way it will be like saying good-bye to you again, but it has almost become stressful...people expect me to be positive for them and give them the positive spin on my grieving and I can't do that anymore.

There are so many people out there that think they know what is best for me...you know the ones :) and you also know that I won't say anything to them, I will just withdraw from them a little at a time.  I am so tired of people saying crazy, weird things, or not saying anything at all...

I think I am just a bit bitter these days and I guess it's just another stage of grief...

I miss you...I miss so many things, but most of all I miss being with you and laughing with you...

Forever love,
Karen

Lord Jesus Christ, by your patience in suffering you hallowed earthly pain and gave us the example of obedience to your Father's will: Be near me in my time of weakness and pain; sustain me by your grace, that my strength and courage may not fail; heal me according to your will; and help me always to believe that what happens to me here is of little account if you hold me in eternal life, my Lord and my God. Amen.