In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul...Psalm 94:19

Dearest Michael~

I remember when we talked about moving...selling the house so you wouldn't have to stress about things that you couldn't do...or worry about the things that weren't getting done and we were both ok with that...looking forward to downsizing and we kept leaning toward the condos on A Street so that we could sit on the balcony each night and watch the sun set...we talked about putting the swing there and maybe a few plants and just kicking back and enjoying what time we had...

Now you aren't here and I find myself stressing about things that I can't do and I worry about things that aren't getting done and I wonder where I am going to end up...part of me never wants to leave this house, after all, it is "us" but I know that I can take my memories with me wherever I go...I just don't know what to do...

Everyone says "don't make any major decisions for at least a year" but moving was something that you and I were beginning to seriously think about so its not as if I'm making any rash decisions when I think about whether it should be done.  Just the thought of being here alone makes me so sad and even scares me a bit...I don't like the responsibility of everything...paying the bills, worrying about the roof leaking, worrying about the basement flooding, wondering if the tree branches will fall on the jeep, trying to keep the yardwork done, and all that weeding, not to mention when the leaves start falling and the snow starts piling up...YIKES!

I wish you were here with me, but I'd be happy with some sort of sign as to what I should do...

Forever love,
Karen

The Light of God surrounds me;
The Love of God enfolds me;
The Power of God protects me;
The Presence of God watches over me;
Wherever I am, God is,
And all is well.