Dearest Michael,
On the eve of the third anniversary of your cancer diagnosis I will begin a blog to you, as I struggle to learn to live without you in my life. I am not sure if I can do it...you have been such a part of my life for so very long, and now that you are not longer here, well sometimes I feel as if I can't get one foot in front of the other, that I will never really laugh again, never find the joy in the simple things in life. My world was knocked off its axle the day you took your last breath...just two months...and I am trying...trying to honor your life...trying to make sense of it all...trying to help the boys as they too struggle with their own grief...trying to get things in order...trying to remember your laugh...the sound of your voice...the touch of your hand...I'm trying...
Forever love,
Karen
Heavenly Father,
in my present need,
help me to believe
that you are aware of my anxiety
and will do what is best for me.
Give me the strength to trust you
and put the present and future in your hands.
Grant this through Christ, our Lord. Amen
The cancer journey, as if time stood still when we heard the news, yet, the Hope and Love and Optimism prevailed, and always did. Cancer "gave" you and Michael so much, may those "gifts" sustain you through this phase, the one where Michael's physical presence is but a memory, but the one where he takes up residence in your heart. He is so proud of you. Love, Your Sis
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