Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest...Matthew 11:28

Dearest Michael~

I am still feeling blessed today after my meeting last night.  I miss you with every fiber of my being and I cry myself to sleep at night...but I do sleep and I'm not restless and though I wake up when Joe comes home and again between 2-3 I am not tired...my body is resting and I know you are happy about that.  I try to put lotion on my feet every night, but some nights I just can't stand to do it because I remember all those nights you would do it for me because you were so worried about me and how my body was failing me as I took care of yours...I would give anything to have you rub my feet...not just for the pure pleasure of it, but because I would feel your touch...I think that's what hurts the most right now is that I was so tired for so long that I didn't get to enjoy a lot of those moments with you...I know its ok, because of the circumstances, but it would be so nice to be in the same space as you...to rub your hands or your feet...to kiss your lips, even the upside down ones as I leaned over your recliner to kiss you...to lay down beside you and feel your heartbeat under my hand...back in the day when I could rest my head on your chest (and not kill my back) I would listen to your heartbeat and it was so strong and I thought it would beat forever...I remember those moments like they were yesterday...and I remember the last beat of your heart ...

Forever love,
Karen

Heavenly Father,
in my present need,
help me to believe
that you are aware of my anxiety
and will do what is best for me.
Give me the strength to trust you
and put the present and future in your hands.
Grant this through Christ, our Lord. Amen.